It all started last week when I found out something unbelievable – my dad had bought a sex doll. To be honest, I felt disgusted. When we were having dinner he casually dropped the news of the doll he had bought – he said it was for ‘experiences’. I have to admit, I wasn’t expecting to hear this ever!
When I asked him why he bought it, he said that it was for the feeling of companionship. And if you ask me, I think it’s just a lame excuse. I think he just wanted to fulfill his sexual desires. I mean, there’s no other reason to buy a sex doll, right? He should just buy a new girlfriend if being alone was the reason why.
Anyways, when I asked him if he had actually used the doll, the answer was a big ‘YES’. He tried to downplay everything by saying that it was just for ‘aesthetic purposes’. But I don’t think there is anything aesthetic about it. It just feels wrong.
I was so flustered, I didn’t know how to react. I couldn’t even bring myself to talk about it. All I could think about was how bizarre and weird my dad’s behavior was. I just kept wondering why did he even buy a sex doll in the first place?
Meanwhile, I was so digusted that I went home and talked to my mom about it. She said that it was a sign of loneliness. She also said that it is very common for people of my dad’s age to indulge in such activities to satisfy their needs. That was a bit of a relief, but to be honest, it still felt kinda weird.
The thing that made me feel even more uncomfortable was the fact that my dad didn’t tell me about it. Spending money on a sex doll is not a small decision and I feel like he should have let me know what was going on before he actually went out and bought it. That shows his lack of respect for me.
I felt so disturbed after finding out what had happened, that I just had to talk about it with someone. I went to my friend’s place and talked to him about it. He said that my dad was probably just looking for a form of comfort and this was his way of getting it. That opened up a chance for me to think of it from a different perspective.
But still, it doesn’t negate the fact that it just feels so wrong. First of all, it’s a huge breach of trust. Secondly, it’s simply bizarre and weird. The whole concept of buying a sex doll just seems inappropriate and strange.
Things have definitely changed. I’m still getting used to the idea. I mean, it’s just so hard to make sense of it all. All this just feels so unnatural and wrong, simply because it’s so unexpected. I mean, sex dolls? That’s just unheard of in my family.
My dad still hasn’t apologized for not telling me about it. It’s just so awkward now and everyone’s trying to pretend like nothing happened. I don’t know what I should do. Should I just accept it? Or vibrators should I confront him and ask him why he did this? I don’t know what the right thing is, and I’m seriously considering speaking to him about it.